Dear Depression,
I have always despised you because dealing with you have always made my life really tough. I hate the days when I would wake up and I cannot get out of bed. I hate the days when I cannot eat my food or do things that I normally love to do. I hate the times I want to isolate from people and cut myself. I also hate the days when all I want to do is die because life has no more meaning. During these moments, the words of the Psalmist in Psalms 88 comes to mind: "Darkness is my only companion". How often do I feel this way? So often I feel alone and abandoned by my friends and family. So often do I feel abandoned by my God.
I know that when my heart brings me down that God's word is greater than my heart. The word of God tells me that God will never leave me nor forsake me. The word of God tells me that there is a Friend who sticks closer than a brother. This Friend is the Great High Priest who suffered in every way that i have suffered, yet he was without sin. In this way, this Friend can sympathize with my struggles and despair. For this reason, my hope and trust is in Jesus Christ alone especially in the moments when life doesn't make any sense because I know that it is only through Christ that life does make sense. God is the Sovereign ruler over all creation and nothing happens in this creation apart from His ordaining it to pass. And the Lord promises to work out ALL things for my good, including my depression. For this reason, no matter what I go through I will always trust in Him because I have no where else to turn.
Depression, you used to control my life, but nowadays you have lost your power over me because I know Jesus Christ and in Him lies my true joy and peace that you cannot destroy. In my weakest moments I am still strong in Him.
Signed,
David Lee Chu Sarchet
Christian Mental Health Advocate
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